SURPRISE!!!!  All on my own, I have decided to write a little entry!

It's crazy how fast summer is going!  I can't believe we are almost halfway done already.  I'm all moved into my new place (COME VISIT ME).  I'm getting used to living on my own.  I no longer have to walk through EVERY room to ensure that no one is lurking in the dark. 

I planted my first flowerbed too!!  It lasted about umm....maybe 3 days.  Now they all look like weeds. 

I went camping this past weekend!  and I got to go waterskiing and watertubing for the first time!  How awesome is that?  I forgot to let go of the rope the first time I fell, so I was dragged through the water for quite a while.  Man...I bet several gallons of water went up my nose. 

This weekend is the ICE CREAM FESTIVAL at my church!  Yum Yum!  This is my most favorite event our church does.  Gallons and gallons of a variety of wonderful homemade ice cream!  Can't wait. 

Wow...I think this is my best entry yet!  hehe...Bye all

yah yah yah...it's been 2 months I know.  Shell is bustin on me to update so here goes.  I'm sitting here at the old place, talking with my old roommates whom I miss like crazy! It's been a rollercoaster of a semester - workload, emotions, sanity (haha...j/k).  Yep that's all I have to say, hence the reason I never update : )

I am physically and mentally exhausted!  No matter how much sleep I get I still feel completely drained!  It's been such a busy summer.  I haven't had much time for myself at all!  I've been stressing a lot about debts and things I need to do before the new semester comes around!  I'm ready to go back but I feel as though I will need a week vacation until I will really be motivated to go back. 

I'm frustrated with this summer.  I feel as though I have nothing to show for it.  I had all these hopes that I wanted to see happen this summer.  I wanted to see my faith grow so much...that hasn't happened.  I wanted to be a strong witness in the places I work...that did happen at the daycare .  That was exciting but I felt like I was saying one thing and doing another.  I was saying how you just need to trust God with everything and look to him in everything you do.  But I myself am not doing that.  Another thing I wanted to do this summer was get in touch with some old friends...that didn't happen.  I went to my friends bridal shower and saw my "clique" from high school.  It was so awkward being there.  We all felt weird and I for one couldn't wait to leave.  It was kinda depressing...you know the saying a "page in your life has turned"  or something like that???  Well that is what I felt.  I felt as though these people who used to be my closest friends were nothing more than acquaintances. Bizarre.

 And one more frustration I have...my mom doesn't trust me!  I'm so tired of it.  I'm 20 years old and I consider myself to be very responsible and firm in what I believe.  I wanted to go to my cousin's wedding party last night, in which there was going to be drinking but hey...it was my cousin.  Anyways...my mom was only going to make a quick appearance earlier in the evening and I wasn't going to be able to leave work until 9 to get there.  I told my mom that I was just going to go around 10 and stay and have fun.  My mom wouldn't let me!  She said that I was not going to be around all those drunk people.  And the thing that really made me angry was she said, "Everyone is going to be drinking"  and she said it in a way that implied that I was going to drink too.  I was so upset with her.  I yelled at her and asked what it was about me that made her think I would do that!  I will admit I have drank alcohol before...a sip of wine and a sip of rum & coke.  THAT'S IT!  I have no desire to drink...but for some reason my mom is so sure that is all I want to do.  I don't get it and she doesn't seem to hear me.  I feel very immature when I say this but my mom is still trying to run my life and I'm tired of it. 

Well I'm done ranting and raving for this evening.  It's been a long week.  Sorry if I sound like a brat but I've had it.